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The truth inside

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Nowdays we talk so much and feel so little. We have become so estranged from our hearts that we look for happines in endless intelectual stimulation, approval from other people, music, alchool, drugs, clothes, cars etc….

I don’t know how things are in other parts of the world, but in my country, Romania, we live in a culture of closed-heartedness. It starts in the first year of school. Children enter this system and become little tense persons who have a serious business to achieve: shoot good grades. The top goal: winning an award at the end of the year.  I wonder if anyone ever thinks  about how the children who rarely or never get an award feel. I rememeber I went through school feeling frustrated, offcast, inferior and separated.  And so, I learned that my  feelings were my private particular business and that I had to hide them and close my heart shut.

Years later, after repetitive approval or disapproval, shaped by who I thought I should be in order to be accepted and appreciated,  I became someone. A well thought definition of myself attached to my body.

Well, you see, this article is not about me. It is actually, about you… and me… and every one who reads it. And althought the details of our journeys may be different, we all share many thing in common: we all  feel and we all believe we are someone.

So, we all have these definitions about ourselves. Undoubtedly. We watch the .ppt presentations about who we think we are unceasingly in the back of our minds. (just in case we forget who we are 🙂 ))) Sometimes, we  present these .ppts  to others as well. We’re so proud: “Look!” And then, one day, something happens, like a car accident which makes us wonder about life and death, or a painful break-up which leaves us devastated with no one to cling to for happiness. And if the pain is big enough, we may stop and wonder about the purpose of all things, why God allowed this to happen and why we have no control whatsoever. Ultimately we ask ourselves: “Who Am I?” . And then all those well conceived slides start to fade.

“Everybody says, “I am so and so, you are so and so, he is so and so, and this is the world.” No one ever questions, “What am I? Where do I come from? Where do I return to? What is the purpose of my coming here? What have I done?” So this question is never asked. “Who am I?” is never asked. So you have to question, “Who am I?” And then you have to search for its answer by yourself here and now. And this is going to free you. ~ Papaji


The traditions of the heart


The meditative traditions say that no matter how philosophically complicated our concepts about ourselves may be, we still don’t know who we are and what is the real purpose of our lives untill we dive deeper. Behind all the thoughts, concepts, attachments and identifications. Some of these traditions say that our true self lies in the heart. These meditative traditions  use the contemplation of the heart for revealing one’s true self. These are the Sufis, the “Who Am I” Inquiry teachers and Hridaya Yoga (where the “Who Am I” inquiry is also taught). I’m sure there are numerous other paths, but I can only speak to you about  these ones for the moment, as they are the only ones I know of.

“In the centre of the cavity of the Heart the sole Brahman shines by itself as the Atman (Self) in the feeling of `I-I’. Reach the Heart by diving within yourself.” Ramana Maharshi

Yet, at the same time – they say – this is the place where all abides: God, love, peace, understanding, all knowledge and the entire Universe.

Thanks to the large spread of knowledge, today, having acces to teachers and meditation techniques is not something exclusivist. So, we can all explore our being and experience our true nature. But, this is not something intelectual. “Ok, now, I know:  my true self lies in my heart, so I know who I am.” . It takes courage, a willingness to give up everything that is fake and a determined practice: time spent with your Self.

“Return again and again into “I am” until it is your only abode, outside of which nothing exists; until the ego as a limitation of “I am” disappears.” Nisargadatta Maharaj

The sweet meeting or the sweet melting

In my opinion, Rumi, the Sufi poet who lived in the 13th century, has the most accurate, passionate and poetic description of this long sought meeting, so I will let him share it for you:

The talks about the heart

Now, take a break and dive into yourself with Gangaji. But don’t believe her. Take a few days,  go in a retreat and find out for yourself. Retreats are taking place all over the world.


“What we are looking for is what is looking.”  Francis of Assisi


In case you had the patience to read the entire article, thank you! I made it this long because I had so much to tell you and did my best to compress everyting in here. If this was uselful for you, let me know. If you want to know more, let me know also.









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